here goes the story of my life...

senior year! should i say already? or finally?! depends on the...

Sun, 17 Jan 2010 18:38:07 -0500

senior year! should i say already? or finally?! depends on the mood.

Give me wings, give me peace These are the things that I need I’m tourmented, boken, and...

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 11:16:28 -0400

Give me wings, give me peace
These are the things that I need
I’m tourmented, boken, and shamed
Are you listening?

And give me shelter from the storm
I know its a lot to ask for considering how recent I’ve piled the dirt on your name

Are you listening?
Are you listening?

I have heard that winter’s cold will give way to summers warmth
Oh no! Like salt in the snow,
I’m melted and left all alone on the side of the road

Is this where I am for your sake?
Stuck between sleep and awake
My mind is dreaming of things
Are you listening?

I took you for granted again
And threw you aside and pretended for one minute that I had control of my life and direction— it seemed to be “in”
I was wrong again

Are you listening?

I have heard that winter’s cold will give way to summers warmth
Oh no! Like salt in the snow,
I’m melted and left all alone on the side of the road

And I will wait for you to come again
And I can’t pretent like I’m confident
And I can’t pretend like it makes much sence when it doesn’t

I have heard that winter’s cold will give way to summers warmth
Oh no! Like salt in the snow,
I’m melted and left all alone on the side of the road

-The Classic Crime

Prepping for some crazy business

Tue, 12 May 2009 13:19:00 -0400

another ridiculous weekend is coming my way.. but one I can’t wait to start… I just need to get through work tonight.. wednesday and thursday.. then work until 9:30 friday night (missing lindsay’s play :/) then straight to berea after work.. until a bit before noon saturday.. then Lindsay Rose’s Play at 2!! after the play i’m working 6-9 then hopefully going to hang out in Auburn after! Sunday will also be an adventure.I’m potentially working, my brother and sister are having their massive joint graduation party..(i’ll see my eldest sister :) can’t wait for that. she’ll only be around for a couple weeks..) then after chilling there for a few hours.. off to Portland to celebrate a belated mother’s day with the best mommy in the world.. (i’m biased i know) with my lindsay and robi darling and mommy susan… also to visit my favorite soon to be mommy who is stuck up in the hospital… i miss you girl! your angel will be perfect!. God’s got it under control. and i’m praying for some sleep sometime in there.. but who knows what’s going to happen… crazyness is a love hate relationship…

YOu know what I think?

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 23:25:41 -0400

(via we-found-our-way)

I think I LOVE you!

stiffness = bedtime

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 00:44:27 -0400

okay.. so I usually work better under pressure.. meaning I’m like the biggest procrastinator in forever…I’ve known about this history essay for a couple weeks now.. but decided i didn’t want to start it until 9 o’clock the night before it’s due?… yeah that’s me. I amaze myself at still getting grades I can smile at.. but going into senior year next year you would think I had the whole, work now, play later thing down..not exactly.. oh well anyway.. just finished the essay at about 12:30.. with distractions.. not too bad Erica… now I’m stiff and ready for a good nights sleep and finishing up my crazy week of singing…I GOT MY SOLO FOR MY MAY CONCERT TODAY!!!! :) then Wednesday (tomorrow) night is Spring Sing at my highschool… and Thursday night me and some buddies will be opening for Mitch something or other who I guess is a pretty known worship leader.. and we’ve had in two full practice sessions.. so this should be interested.. pray for my poor voice.. it’s still going strong but we’ll see what happens after going on a constant 5 hours of sleep everynight.. oh boy.. love you all.. NA NIGHT

If I had a chance for another try, I wouldn’t change a...

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 15:52:25 -0400

If I had a chance for another try,

I wouldn’t change a thing

This made me all who I am inside

And if I could thank God

That I am here, and I am alive

and everyday I wake

I tell myself a little hamless lie

The whole wide world is mine…

kinda hoping i can deal with driving my mom around this afternoon… praying i don’t...

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 13:49:22 -0400

kinda hoping i can deal with driving my mom around this afternoon… praying i don’t freak..

what they heck.. where did this come from?…where do we go from here?

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 19:06:28 -0400

what they heck.. where did this come from?…where do we go from here?

people you love will pass on from this life.. but hold tight to...

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 15:25:54 -0400

people you love will pass on from this life.. but hold tight to the memories.. they’ll never leave.. i miss him now.. as much as ever..

Thomas Michael Boyd… May 23, 1991 ~ September 9, 2006

<3

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 13:42:14 -0400

No matter how badly it hurts.. He’s always there feeling...

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 22:38:53 -0400

No matter how badly it hurts.. He’s always there feeling it with you..

what to do?

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 22:28:25 -0400

i’m kinda just wondering what i can do to make the world a brighter place.. i’m running tired.. and not giving up.. just when i’m on the home stretch i’m caught off guard and run over by the latest news from depressing central.. all i can do is trust that God’s going to continue to use me.. even when i’m more than exhausted with life..i’m having a hard time with not being able to fix everything for everyone.. but i need to just do everything i can i guess.. and know that i’m not in control.. on a brighter note.. i get my permit in the morning.. so i can drive my mom crazy!.. that will be fun….. anyway.. off to finish a good two hours of homework and studying for a test.. yay! GOD IS STILL GOOD!!! He shows himself to me everyday through my ridiculously amazing friends who wouldn’t give up on me even if i wanted them to.

God's going to give me an AMAZING week.. can feeeel it (c:

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:57:00 -0400

I wanna have the same last dream again,the one where I wake up...

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 22:56:00 -0400

I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I’m alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I’m the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that’s dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life’s waiting to begin.

Any type of love - it will be shown,
like every single tree reach for the sky.
If you’re gonna fall,
I’ll let you know,
that I will pick you up
like you for I,
I felt this thing,
I can’t replace.
Where everyone was working for this goal.
Where all the children left without a trace,
only to come back, as pure as gold,
To recite this all.

Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life’s waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life’s waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life’s waiting to begin.

I cannot live, I can’t breathe
unless you do this with me

Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me),
and here we go, life’s waiting to begin (do this with me).
Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me).
And here we go, life’s waiting to begin,
life’s waiting to begin